Sanctuary International

Subject: sad times Tue Apr 08, 2008 11:38 am

So since I have had the broken computer my life has been less than, well good.
Due to circumstances beyond my control, my little doggie ran away. We were at the park and he just disappeared. I have been crushed and heartroken and all I can do anymore is cry.
He was like the little piece of duct tape that was holding me together. When I have a animal everything is all right with the world, but when I don't...all I can do is think of everything else going wrong with me.
I horribly sick, I have organs that are not going to hold up, if my organs don't fail my lungs probably will. Not to mention the lifestyle we (me and hubby) live is stressful and hard and is not helping my health problems any.
So besides all the crying I have hardly been eating or drinking and my kidneys are already bad and I have been having horrible headaches and thinking about things is gving me dark dark thoughts.
So I just needed to vent and if you all could keep me in your prayers. I am not like about to top myself off, but I am just thinking very bleakly.
I don't know when I'll be on next, but I know I'll feel the power of your prayers.
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Life and death, energy and peace. If I stop today it was still worth it. Even the terrible mistakes that I made and would have unmade if I could. The pains that have burned me and scarred my soul, it was worth it, for having been allowed to walk where I've walked, which was to hell on earth, heaven on earth, back again, into, under, far in between, through it, in it, and above.
-Gia Carangi

Subject: Re: sad times Tue Apr 08, 2008 12:28 pm

Sweet girl, we lift you up before God, and will keep you there. Please know that God will be with you through everything. Lean on Him, reach out to Him, stay in His word and listen for His soothing voice - it's there.

You are loved dearly....

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"Who among the gods is like you, O LORD ?
Who is like you—
majestic in holiness,
awesome in glory,
working wonders?" Exodus 15:11

http://www.achurchforthecity.org

"I don't reject your Christ, I love your Christ. It's just that so many of you Christians are so unlike your Christ." Mahatma Ghandi

Subject: Re: sad times Tue Apr 08, 2008 9:14 pm

Aw I am so sorry Switchblade. I am praying for you and that your doggie will make it home okay. My heart sank like a brick when I read about this. I have had two cats die in my arms in the past month and I know.......I know...... *tear*

My little dog is everything to me. And he does like to take off into the street sometimes, and I live in the city......

I am so, so, so.......sorry. :-(

Age : 51 Joined : 21 May 2007 Posts : 209

Praying.

Subject: Re: sad times Sat Apr 19, 2008 10:23 am

Thanks for the prayers. I feel this protective layer around my heart.
As far as my little guy returning I don't think that will happen as the only "home" he knows is the truck and we were half done with our week off when he went away and now we're far far away.
I have been crying myself to sleep at least a few nights a week and have just been bursting into tears whenever I get a few minutes alone.
I am having a lot of problems dealing with life in general. My faith and my and your prayers are the only thing holding me up right now.
I'm having problems with my husband too and I am honestly not sure if I even want to fix them. Long story but I don't think it's right to talk bad about your spouse publicly so I am keeping my mouth shut. : - X
But please keep me in your prayers - I love you guys!
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Life and death, energy and peace. If I stop today it was still worth it. Even the terrible mistakes that I made and would have unmade if I could. The pains that have burned me and scarred my soul, it was worth it, for having been allowed to walk where I've walked, which was to hell on earth, heaven on earth, back again, into, under, far in between, through it, in it, and above.
-Gia Carangi

Age : 51 Joined : 21 May 2007 Posts : 209

Sorry. Still praying.

Subject: Re: sad times Sat Apr 19, 2008 11:31 am

thanks. I'm just hurting so bad right now I could just curl up in a ball and disappear.
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Life and death, energy and peace. If I stop today it was still worth it. Even the terrible mistakes that I made and would have unmade if I could. The pains that have burned me and scarred my soul, it was worth it, for having been allowed to walk where I've walked, which was to hell on earth, heaven on earth, back again, into, under, far in between, through it, in it, and above.
-Gia Carangi

Subject: Re: sad times Sat Apr 19, 2008 12:47 pm

i kinda feel the same way at the moment.....sorry.

i'll be praying for you..
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hakuna matatta.

Subject: Re: sad times Sat Apr 19, 2008 7:17 pm

I am so sorry you (both) are going through this - I will be praying for you and your husband... and you too, Victor.

If there is more we can do, please, please let us know and we will try.
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"Who among the gods is like you, O LORD ?
Who is like you—
majestic in holiness,
awesome in glory,
working wonders?" Exodus 15:11

http://www.achurchforthecity.org

"I don't reject your Christ, I love your Christ. It's just that so many of you Christians are so unlike your Christ." Mahatma Ghandi

Subject: Re: sad times Mon Apr 21, 2008 3:06 pm

thanks - just keep me in your prayers. I can so feel the love of all you and my blanket of prayers surrounding me.
I have about cried myself out of tears now I just have to make the slow recoverery back to the land of the living. It will take prayers and time. Somehow I always come back, a little battered and bruised but deep down inside I am a survivor and I always manage. Although "managing" isn't the best way to look at like, whatever get me through.

(((hugs))) to you Victor - I'll keep you in my prayers too hun.
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Life and death, energy and peace. If I stop today it was still worth it. Even the terrible mistakes that I made and would have unmade if I could. The pains that have burned me and scarred my soul, it was worth it, for having been allowed to walk where I've walked, which was to hell on earth, heaven on earth, back again, into, under, far in between, through it, in it, and above.
-Gia Carangi

Subject: Re: sad times Tue Apr 22, 2008 7:19 am

i will be praying too, i feel like that too.
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Perfection:
To never see it snow, or ever feel the rain again,
To never be in love, or having to explain again,
To not have to cover my face so
you won't see my pain,
that would be perfection.

Subject: Re: sad times Tue Apr 22, 2008 9:46 pm

ooooh krisi ((((hugs)))) for you sweetie
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Life and death, energy and peace. If I stop today it was still worth it. Even the terrible mistakes that I made and would have unmade if I could. The pains that have burned me and scarred my soul, it was worth it, for having been allowed to walk where I've walked, which was to hell on earth, heaven on earth, back again, into, under, far in between, through it, in it, and above.
-Gia Carangi