The Race

Subject: The Race Thu May 01, 2008 12:51 pm

I have finally seen the end of the race. I see who has won, who died along the way and who came in last.
Its over. I have lost the greatest thing (possession) that I ever had. My job. Narced out with built up stories by one old man. Too old to pummel to death, Too old to retaliate against. The race is over. I lost.
Time for some peace, rest, solace and comfort.
To everyone on here that warned me of the impending doom of my lifestyle, YOU was right. The machine is too big, its tentacles too long and corrupt to fight against. I guess I will CONFORM ..conform conform....comfort...... clown

Eph 5:14 Wherefore he saith, Awake thou that sleepest, and arise from the dead, and Christ shall give thee light. study

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Jim, you lost your job? I'm sorry to hear that. Do you care to explain your post? I'm afraid it's a bit cryptic.

Subject: Re: The Race Thu May 01, 2008 1:04 pm

Its hard to explain bro....Everything I belive has been forced away from me. I have to conform or my family will suffer...All I wanted to do was to wake up people to whats going on out there. But the sleep they are in seems so good to me right now. I cant let my family suffer for my war.
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Bro, I don't think anyone understands what you are talking about. Feel free to PM me, man.

Subject: Re: The Race Fri May 02, 2008 4:10 am

Jim, I think I understand. And you know what? Maybe you've been running in the wrong race. I don't think it's the race that God wants you to run in. We are supposed to run in a race, yes, but not the one you were running in.

Maybe He wants you to have some time to rest so you can get back in shape for the REAL race, the one Paul mentions when he talks about fighting the good fight.

Dude I live in the antithesis of where you live. I live smack dab in the middle of the city, and I am just about the onlyest little white girl on my block. I am THE marshmallow.....in the hot chocolate.

However, I was raised in a sea of marshmallows, LOL. It's nice, it's white, it's clean and uppity.........and very boring.

And you know what I've found?

Chocolate is sweet. Smile

It's also good for depression.

I've found some of the most sweetness in life, in the friendships I have with my chocolate friends.

There is good and bad on both sides, Jim. There really is. We're all human, and it's just melonin. Once you open your heart, you will find that there is a lot of good things in people who are different from you, that you were missing out on.

And as far as the fight goes.....the only fight God wants us to fight is a spiritual one. Ephesians says that we wrestle not against flesh and blood.

Jim, you are a warrior. Warriors are meant to fight.

But I don't think you were meant to fight the way you've been fighting.

And hopefully this will all make sense to you. It does to me, but then it's 5 in the morning........so.....

yeah. Smile

Subject: Re: The Race Fri May 02, 2008 6:51 am

makes perfect sense!

...even though it was in the form of sugar coated chocolate beverages......it made sense.
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Subject: Re: The Race Fri May 02, 2008 7:07 am

Ok Ill try to be more direct.
I brought my radio from home to listen to it, this is allowed. On my radio is a bunch of pictures of smiley faces and tanks and flowers and skulls...also one swastika...I left it at work so one of my friends there could listen to cds. Another old vile man seen my radio, took all my pictures off of it and turned me in for racism because of the one swastika on it...
The company acted in normal FEAR mode and fired me.

The fault is all mine. I should not have left the radio for my friend to use. I accept full responsibility for this.
I was going to pummel the old man and break his legs so he too would be out of work...Then have a couple buds take care off the boss....But the truth of the matter is, It was my fault that I loaned out the radio to my friend at work.

so the U.S. thought police has chocked up another victim. I was fired because of my political party choice and lifestyle choice (national Socialist) .I was aware that my party choice had the chance of being my downfall.

But it isnt really worth talking about. I did as the bible said , check and see that the Lord is GOOD..I asked God for my job back expecting just that for my familys sake . We will see how that turns out. clown

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Subject: Re: The Race Fri May 02, 2008 8:13 am

Thank you Marsha.....I really want this job back, it was my dream job, the one I would retire at. I did good there. I had tenure there too, only three above me (one which bleeped me over)
I have enough dirt on him tho to get him fired before he knows what hit him....THIS I will use when I have the meeting with the company owner. clown

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Subject: Re: The Race Fri May 02, 2008 1:51 pm

Sorry about you loosing your job Jim. But I have to say good job from me too in maintaining and not acting out on the guy. Sometimes our anger can get the best of us and cause us to do things that we later regret.
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Subject: Re: The Race Tue May 06, 2008 12:22 am

There have been swastikas drawn on the men's room walls at our company and people are really having a fit about it. I'm sorry but I think it's ignorant. I think writing on bathroom walls is ignorant, and I also think racism is ignorant and has no place in the work place.

But Jim, I'm glad you didn't do something really ignorant and end up in prison or death row, and I hope and pray that you find another job, because I know getting fired ain't fun. Sad

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Okay...I feel bad about you losing your job. And maybe I'm a tad confused here. However, if i walked into my job and seen a raido with a sticker on it that read "no fat chicks" or "kill whitey" I think I would be VERY offended. A lot of my friends are black, and I would NEVER dream of one of them being "ignorant" for making a big deal about seeing a co-worker with a swastika, because they would have every right to be offended. I'm not trying to be mean, and I probably don't know you well, or have the whole story, but if you practice something, or believe in a certain thing you must know that the word of God say's there are "times to speak, times to be quiet" ect, ect...You see what I'm saying?

Gesuschic~

Subject: Re: The Race Wed May 07, 2008 7:54 am

No Gesuschic, you do not have the whole story...
and none of your "IFS" would fit into what happened at my job he was neither black, jew or anything except American.. but I see where you are coming from....But it seems like everyone forgets where there is a conflict of beliefs between two people BOTH people have rights, not just one. Both people should be allowed to believe as they wish and have symbols of their belief on their own PERSONAL POSSESSIONS no matter how unpopular those beliefs are. This is still America, wiccans have rights, satanist have rights, voodoo practitioners have rights, lovers, haters, homos, perverts have rights to believe as they wish....I was denied my right. AND this is the most important thing...He didnt get mad and curse and run out of the room untill he asked me if I was German....I said HALF german, then he through the fit and went and told on me....It wasnt the swastika that pissed him off, it was the fact that I was half German. Now we can talk about racism. He was the only one out of four people that seen it daily that bitched....But not till he asked me if I was German.

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TIME TO SPEAK AND TIMES TO BE QUIET.....THIS is completely the truth!!!!!!!....I wish you would have been standing there to tell me to take that blasted thing off my radio before he seen it LOL. I do have a problem of speaking without thinking, its a part of one of the four "Brain probs" I have. Meds dont always work on the double Y Chromosone.
Believe me your not the first to tell me this hehe , I need to try harder.
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Subject: Re: The Race Wed May 07, 2008 11:48 am

For the record let me say 2 things -
1st I am not down with swastika, it makes me very feel kinda ucky BUT I understand the reason for Jim being upset. When I was on the dark side I had some LaVey books with me - in my purse and I guess people saw them and I got told not to bring them back into the building. I wasn't trying to convert anyone, it was just some reading for downtime. I felt my rights were totally spit on but this was a small place I worked at so I had no way to fight back.
2nd as far as Tonya's chocolate/marshmallow (which made me hungry for a candy bar by the way) I just wanna say that I am a smooth piece of caramel and I have lived surrounded by nothing but marshmallows and tons of chocolate and have been both accepted and hated on by both peoples.
And that's all I have to say about that
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