Self Analysis

Sometimes you have to stop, look at yourself from an outside point of view. I did this and determined I am a jerk and need to come back to God....I will do this. Its a long road to travel but its worth the trip.

Its a daily thing!

Dood! Dieing to the flesh on a constant my friend... We all battle this. Sometimes I think I do more than others.

“Long is the way And hard, that out of Hell leads up to light” - John Milton





I can feel your pain. I have been slipping and I too feel I need to get back on track before I slip too far and just don't even try to get back on track and end up in that old horrible dark place that I struggled so long to get out of.

I did this by looking at some of my old vids, I saw an arrogant womanizing drunkard! I'm still in the Doors tribute and we have a few shows booked for the summer, but I have no delusions about being Jim, and if the shows get cancelled for some reason it's not the end of the world. My life was so tied up in that role, it's where I got my identitiy and self worth, it was also where I got the women! I'm not looking for a "score" anymore, I'm looking for a wife, one for Mark, not "Jimbo!"

sounds like your on the right track mark....I wish you the best of luck...a good wife is a great blessing.

there's nothing to smack you into being a better person like video or picture proof of you being just the kind of person you don't want to be.
Congrats on making the first step Mark - truly and 100% wanting to be out of your old lifestyle.

i'm a jerk sometimes.....too often really, but i'm trying, and i'm pretty sure that's all that counts, so congratz to you Henry, Changeling..it's hard to change your ways, it's good that it matters to you.
this means that you indeed are NOT a jerk, just that you make mistakes : )


and for the record:
i think that women are one of the greatest blessings on this earth, and are far too often taken for granted, i know that i'm young......but i watch people, and women (those worth thier salt) deserve far more respect than they get.

I am actually enjoying my journey back to God...I am remaining free from all of the bondage and trappings of the so called MODERN CHURCH. God is amazing that he would take me back with my head still so twisted up inside.. I feel special in his eyes....Man that's powerful.

it might be a sore subject.....

but do any of your friends have a problem with this?
i mean like, you're not gonna get hurt because of your desicsion....right?
that would suck.

my friends think im nuts, they believe only in the white power scene and belief....Nothing to do with as they call it the Jew God on a stick......But I dont care what they believe , I stand alone at teh judgment seat of God....I believe in God , Jesus and the Holy spirit...if they dont thats their problem.

Great job Jim!!!

I also sometimes find it amazing that God would take me back after all I did and the way I act. Another great proof that He is greater and wiser than us.

PTL!!!

switchbladeknitter wrote:

Great job Jim!!!

I also sometimes find it amazing that God would take me back after all I did and the way I act. Another great proof that He is greater and wiser than us.

PTL!!!

He is God, and we are not. His love for us, and ability to forgive us is awesome.

Well I'm pretty convinced by the goings on of my day today, that I am a filthy rotten sinner. I'm not going into details, but I was convinced of it before, and now I'm really convinced. I guess if last weekend didn't convince me, then today had to. I don't know what's wrong with me sometimes. Sometimes I feel like such a spiritual connection with God and like I'm on cloud 9 and then sometimes I feel like I'm not even worthy of picking up a Bible.....

....today was one of those days.

awwww Tonnie...here, this is from Dale Thompson. I look to him as such an awesome man of God with great wisdom, and this really helped me...I hope you as well.

CHERyL~

We cannot reform old Adam. We cannot redeem our old humanity with its desires and lusts. We must leave our human consciousness behind. We must leave our old human consciousness, our old Adamic mind and identity, out at the altar of sacrifice (the cross) and enter into the presence, glory, and power of God in our new life in the spirit! Only the new creation can enter in! We have tried to make Adam "behave" so we could be pleasing to God. We have put our flesh under laws and rules and regulations and tried to make it be good. It hasn’t worked! It cannot be done! Leave the old carcass behind and enter in your spirit into the presence of God in the Most Holy Place.

There is no sin at all in your regenerated spirit! And that is who you now really are! As a new creation you haven’t done anything wrong! Your regenerated spirit has not sinned! In your true identity you are not guilty! There is therefore no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus!

Someone says, "But my flesh still wants to sin. My flesh still flies off the handle, cusses, thinks evil thoughts, makes bad choices, criticizes, is fearful, deceitful, selfish, hurtful, and lusts after evil things." Sure it does — for "that which is born of the flesh is flesh." That’s how flesh is! Flesh can’t be any different! You can’t make flesh holy! It’s born of the wrong seed! But there is a further truth. "That which is born of the spirit is spirit." That which is born of the spirit is your regenerated spirit and it is like Christ. You don’t have to try to make it like Christ. It is! And that’s the real you! That’s the new man that you are! That’s the spiritual man, the heavenly man, the divine man — Christ. And that is the man who may enter into the Holiest any time, at any place, day or night.

When the flesh has mis-behaved and would heap guilt and condemnation upon your head, leave that old carcass at the tabernacle gate and enter on in to the presence of God in the Most Holy Place! Enter in the blood, in the life of Jesus in your spirit!

Either this is the most glorious gospel that a man has ever heard; or it is the greatest delusion to which man has ever listened.

If it be true that Christ Jesus has been manifested to somehow, in some mystery that the carnal mind can never fathom, in order to take hold of my sins, my impure thoughts, my words of bitterness, my stubborn selfishness, my unholy deeds, and life, and lead, and bear them away — that is the best news I have ever heard! I long for that more than all!

Dale